Reflecting by the lake

Oct 6, 2024
2 min read

Updated: Mar 18

October 6th, 2024

Hey There, Twink!

I am currently sitting on a bench at the local pond. I awoke at a moderately early time- seven a.m.- and decided to take myself on a date. I am following the six weeks 'Artist's Way' course. I want to take it seriously. I want to put in the work and become a better artist. Whatever that means. But more importantly, I wish to become a better person.

I want to be fully conscious and active within my life. I no longer wish to be a mindless zombie, going about his day to day drifting about- as I have been doing. I feel my life as of late has nearly no content. I sit at my grandmothers house nearly all day, every day. I fear it is beginning to take a toll on me creatively.

I mean it makes sense. How can I wish to create, when I have nothing to inspire me? No muses. Although I do suppose that if I truly am an artist, as I do love to call myself, I should be able and willing to take inspiration from anywhere and everything, no? I suppose in the context of it all, maybe I should be focusing on the tiny, miniscule, things. Focus on the birds in the sky, and the deafening stillness when no one else is home. Stuff like that, right? IDK lol.

I suppose this is why I am seeking employment. I think I am hoping this new job will provide stimulation, and bring back my creative juices. Although I do wonder, just how much creativity can realistically be born from working retail? I have no idea.

At any rate, my interview at Sephora is this afternoon, and I intend to slay it. I have no clue whether the job is feasible, as I have no car, or whether I actually want it. At any rate, I intend to get the job! lol.